I woke up this morning, wondering what was so “good” about it? Amidst other demons I fight daily, – most being birthed from my decision to live a “Christian” life in the real-intended way – a looming one at this time of year is the pain found in true empathy with the facts from the history of this day. A day that confirms that human beings within themselves are not trustworthy – voting for a murderer, instead of an innocent man, to be set free. Inventing such a thing as Crucifixion – horrendous! What revolting beings some humans must be to invent something so barbarically cruel and torturous to do to another human being; and then act on it. This group of beings who fit into the same category as I do: “Human”, taking a leader, teacher, compassionate, loving and miracle-enacting-man and crucifying Him. Then in that Crucifixion process – in His moments of excruciating pain – He asks that those behaving diabolically be: “Forgiven, because they know not what they do.”
So what is “Good” about today? The example. The headline news that others do not have to control our hearts and minds. That no matter the pain, the hurt, the suffering, the emptiness, the loneliness, the desperate agony created by that which cannot be undone, we can be free of it all in Spirit. We can forgive. We can cast aside our selfishness – the only thing which is keeping us in pain and conflict and everything negative – and we can rise above that pain with empathy to understand that those who inflict the pain upon us do not know what they are doing. They have not chosen to rise above themselves, they have not chosen to leave behind all their negativity so they can be free. The pain and hurt, nightmares and bad, bad, bad karma that awaits them and their children and all the blind descendants beyond them, who will receive worse punishment and more prolonged agony than anything their predecessor ever felt in the moment of killing or harming another. One moment to pierce and break a man, a lifetime (and beyond, as your children and grandchildren will be changed negatively by your prolonged inability to see) to live with it.
What is “good” is that The Man, through indescribable pain and torture, still understood, empathised and acknowledged that He was more than what the ignorant made Him out to be. He was more than what He had been reduced to. His contentment, peace and ability to love from a position that encouraged none of the three, cried out in truth within itself, because no hero story was ever written where the hero was left completely defiled and alone with not one person staying or intervening with a climax plan to save the hero from death. What is unbelievable about the story? The hero did not fight, or defend or attack, He simply stayed in his truth.
What is ‘good’ is the truth of the reactions of the participants in the story – it reflects humans who live in fear, humans who run around scared, unable to be constant, able to deny their truth and fabricate stories to help their minds eliminate their guilt by making up such tales as to justify their behaviour that has made a situation worse and not better.
What is “good” about the story, is that it is too real and too honest to be passed over. It is a story where the people who wrote it could have claimed glory for themselves, but they did not. Matthew, Mark, Luke, John, James and Paul all admitted guilt, all accepted and wrote about their denials, their deficiencies, their guilt and the fact that they were scared, confused, afraid, lost and all that ‘heroes’ and ‘great authors’ would not proclaim themselves to be when writing about something as incredibly honourable as being a ‘chosen one’ to witness a resurrection. They wrote of their truth as humans, and took no credit for anything they did, but all suffered torturous deaths in the end to serve the one they denied.
The ‘good’ of the day, is that it shows me that the hurt, the pain, the suffering, the doubt, the confusion, the need for help and to have cups taken away from me, are not only struggles within me, they are a part of the human journey. Centuries of it, still unchanged: That the suffering must be, but how I react to it, how I live through it, how I fall and forgive and weep are all part of the story, and if I choose well, I will also rise again. I just wish I hadn’t been so exhausted through the years of living this truth. May we all continue to find HIS energy to rise again and beyond the tortures of being human.
Shall we still be forgiven; because we “now know what we do”? … And God says we shall… What is good? GRACE.